feeling down.

i just feel like i'm not deserve to be happy. well. i always didn't get what i want. tapi takpe lah. bukan rezeki.. tapi aku tetap bersyukur.. feeling down because this family problems really killing me inside aish.. i wanna DIE immediately eh. but i'm not gonna give up to pray for our happiness. and my family will back to normal again. =) and i guess i'm truely deeply madly in love with her tanpa disedari.. but malangnya she's not mine. ouch! huhu.. but it's okay.. asalkan dia gumbira.. saya turut gumbira.. hehe.. should i stop hoping and let it go??? aku tak pernah rasa camni before this. i don't know why. aku rasa happy, lega, disayangi, and soooooo angau. haha she is different from others. dia macam gadis idaman gitew~ haha. i'm serious and i'm not kidding! pintu hati aku terbuka untuk dia setelah sekian lama and aku sanggup if terluka lagi sekali. before this, aku seolah-olah fobia cinta pulak. haha aku takut dilukai lagi. and idk why with her haa.. i know the risks but aku seperti rela dilukai.. pergh ayat. haha but ni luahan hati yang ikhlas. pergh.. power pulak ayat aku malam2 cenggini.. haha  and me redha.. kalau ada jodoh, tak ke mana.. ;) peace yoo! (^_^)(Y)