feeling down.

i just feel like i'm not deserve to be happy. well. i always didn't get what i want. tapi takpe lah. bukan rezeki.. tapi aku tetap bersyukur.. feeling down because this family problems really killing me inside aish.. i wanna DIE immediately eh. but i'm not gonna give up to pray for our happiness. and my family will back to normal again. =) and i guess i'm truely deeply madly in love with her tanpa disedari.. but malangnya she's not mine. ouch! huhu.. but it's okay.. asalkan dia gumbira.. saya turut gumbira.. hehe.. should i stop hoping and let it go??? aku tak pernah rasa camni before this. i don't know why. aku rasa happy, lega, disayangi, and soooooo angau. haha she is different from others. dia macam gadis idaman gitew~ haha. i'm serious and i'm not kidding! pintu hati aku terbuka untuk dia setelah sekian lama and aku sanggup if terluka lagi sekali. before this, aku seolah-olah fobia cinta pulak. haha aku takut dilukai lagi. and idk why with her haa.. i know the risks but aku seperti rela dilukai.. pergh ayat. haha but ni luahan hati yang ikhlas. pergh.. power pulak ayat aku malam2 cenggini.. haha  and me redha.. kalau ada jodoh, tak ke mana.. ;) peace yoo! (^_^)(Y)

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sumpah lah. kalau terus macam ni aku lari dari rumah lah! ARRGGHHHH! need somebody/something to cheer me up.. now 3:36 am and i'm still wide awake. =.=

i love cats! ;)

kucing ke 10 and 9 are so funny. haha..

LOL. non-stop laughing tengok video ni. CEKKIDAUT! HAHA.. ;)

DG :)

Jet setter
Go getter
Nothing better
Call me Mr. been there done that
Top model chick to your every day hood rat
Less than all but more than a few
But I've never met one like you

Been all over the world
Done a little bit of everything
Little bit of everywhere
With a little bit of everyone
All the girls I've been with
Things I've seen it takes much to impress
But sure nough your glow it makes your soul stand out from all the rest baby

I can be in love
But I just don't know

( I just don't know )
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do it's working
Other girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

You're not a regular girl
You don't give a damn about the loot
Talking about I can't do it for you
But you can do it for yourself
Even though that ain't so
Baby cause my dough don't know how to end
But that independent thing I'm with it
All we do is win baby

I could be in love
But I just don't know
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do it's working
Other girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Baby you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

Diamond girl
Only one in the world
Just one of a kind
She mine

Ooh all that I can think about is what this thing could be
A future baby
Baby you're one of a kind
That means that you're the only one for me
Only one for me
Baby (girl) you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this 

I keep listening to this song all over again.. don't know why.. haha.. ohh DiGi, i hope you will be mine and we will be together forever. InsyaAllah and Amin~ ;)   ohh gosh. look! what you have done to me DG??? haha. i never felt like this before.. bahagia doh! hati aku kembali alive.. wahh.. haha thanks btw. hope continuously aku rasa camni. DiGi lagi BEST! XD

Complete lyrics: http://www.directlyrics.com/neyo-one-in-a-million-lyrics.html
Complete lyrics: http://www.directlyrics.com/neyo-one-in-a-million-lyrics.html

happy XD

i don't know why but i'm so happy since yesterday hoo.. hahaha. thanks to YOU! truely madly deeply in love with you.. eh? i'm in love???? jeng jeng jeng.. simpan dalam hati je lah~ haha.. btw, i'm so HAPPY. mudah-mudahan happy ni akan continuously sampai bila-bila.. ^_^

Ambition

hmm yes. cita-cita aku dari kecik lagi nak jadi PILOT. Atas sebab-sebab yang tertentu, aku tak dapat nak capai cita-cita aku ni. tadi baru nak apply  but i am disqualified. :'( patah seribu hatiku~~ haha.. takpe.. nanti aku harap, aku dapat jadi pilot untuk sehari je and pakai uniform ni. untuk sehari je. lagi best kalau ada orang yang tersayang tengok aku pakai uniform ni and dudok kat sebelah time aku fly kan kapal terbang ni.. hehe. Harap-harap tercapai lah angan-angan aku ni.. Amin.. ^_^

hmm..

    

layan je la lagu ni... tiba-tiba aku sedih pulak.. hmm.. Allah je yg tahu hati aku.. :'(

her. :'(

i really miss her.. yes.. HER.. yes. HER. YES! HER! :'(  hmm.. dia lah mawar putih di antara jambangan bunga mawar merah. she's the only one. but... nevermind.. (^_^)